My dear,
I don't know where to begin with. I wish i was writing this using a typewriter not a keyboard. I imagine that way words would've come out so much easier as that's how they show it in movies.
It's getting colder each week. Little by little. I haven't seen any golden leaves yet which are indeed the best part of autumn. But i'm not in a hurry this year. I'm taking my time. I don't want this fall to pass quickly. I just got a déjà vu! I feel like i've written this before. I wish i remembered afterwards...i was saying, Have you ever felt something so close but yet so far? it feels like catching air with your bare hand. You can see it but it's not quite there. for a moment your heart is gonna burst with happiness but the next secound it's shattered. because you're back in reality. You kinda know how it's gonna end but you're pretending to "Carpe Diem"-it away.
My dear, life is beautiful but it's also brutal. We get attached to things so easily, before we even notice it. smells, voices, colors, temperatures. Every year at the beginning of summer i'm fascinated by sunshine, by its warmth. but suddenly i see myself in the middle of summer, forgotten about how being cold felt like, taking it for granted. it's the same in winter; in a complete oblivion. I can't even imagine being warm. That's how stupid humans deal with everything. we get attached. and that's fucking scary. you know what attachment brings? Expectations. when you take something for granted, you start to expect certain events and when those expectations take place, you get even greedier. Until suddenly summer is over, wind blows, leaves start to turn yellow and they fall down. And you remember what it felt like to be cold.
